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Name: Pat
Location: Bennett, Colorado, United States

I am curious. About everything and everyone! To me, life is only worth living if we interact with one another. Learn from one another. Serve each other; teach each other. Care deeply for one another, and take care of each other. And maybe the most important - life is quite possibly only worth living if we find the "funny" in absolutely everything! Laughter & Love. Can you imagine life without these? Would you want to? Not me!

I wrote a book of my cancer experience. It was published to support cancer patients and their caregivers; click here if you'd care to give it a read:
  • Pat Battles A Wolf
  • Click here to help fund mammograms for those who can't afford them:
  • The Breast Cancer Site
  • Tuesday, December 15, 2009

    Pat's Been Taking Quizzes Again!

    At Similar Minds Dot Com: http://www.similarminds.com/

    Took a couple of the Enneagram tests, as well as the combined Jung/Enneagram test. I think the combined test portrays me most accurately:


    ENFJ - "Persuader". Outstanding leader of groups. Can be aggressive at helping others to be the best that they can be. 2.5% of total population.
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    Enneagram Test Results
    Type 1 Perfectionism56%
    Type 2Helpfulness86%
    Type 3Image Awareness20%
    Type 4Sensitivity16%
    Type 5Detachment33%
    Type 6Anxiety36%
    Type 7Adventurousness80%
    Type 8Aggressiveness63%
    Type 9Calmness83%
    Your main type is 2
    Your variant is social
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    So yeah - I represent only 2.5% of the general population! Sounds about right, eh?

    Wednesday, December 09, 2009

    Idiot!

    I needed a good laugh and I got it! The Ex, it seems, is convinced I have a BOYFRIEND! Mwahaha! I only work full time, drive two hours each day, take care of our son, do all the house and yard work (including shoveling snow), take care of the dogs, transport son to doctor each week AND play taxi cab to His Royal Dufus!

    OMG what a flippin' idiot he is!

    What really gets my ire up is that he dumps all this on our son in the middle of the day - when he's suposed to be focused on schoolwork! The Spineless Wonder doesn't even have the balls to confront me directly! What a f***ing moron!!

    Sunday, November 29, 2009

    Pictorial Thanksgiving 2009

    Much of what was planned did not happen or was changed. Not happening were the Stuffed Dates, Chai Tea, Raspberry Refreshers, Tossed Salad w/Herbed Croutons, Crescent Rolls, Buttermilk Biscuits, Raisin Sauce, Pork Loin Roast, Green Beans w/Caramelized Onions & Apple Cider ... and 2 Fresh-Baked Loaves of Bread became 3 (and good thing, too, because there were none left!)


    Also ... no time to get shots of everything that was made (mainly because things tended to disappear as soon as I put them on the table!).

    But I was able to snag these few ...

    One partially prepped table before folks started arriving (there were 2 tables full of food)...


    Home made cranberry sauce...


    Home made applesauce...


    Fresh made bread...


    Caprese Salad (made and assembled by PJ)...


    Buffalo wings w/Ranch dressing & veggie sticks...


    Loaded potato skins...


    Cornbread salad...


    Pineapple casserole...


    Creamed spinach...


    Sweet potato salad...


    Swiss potato kugle...


    My special mashed potatoes (smothered in butter)...


    But by far, these are the very best pics of the Holiday...

    2 very satisfied (and tired) puppy dogs...


    And this last shot. It is completely out of focus because I was rolling with laughter and so the camera was shaking uncontrollably ....


    But it is my most prized Holiday Photo. How many of you out there can boast of a photo capturing a teenaged boy (PJ's friend) opening our frig door and falling to his knees (OK, OK ... his butt) in awe at the utopia of Turkey Day leftovers laid out before him? It SOOOOOO made my day!

    November 29th, 2009

    Today marks 8 years since my bi-lateral mastectomy. Am I marking time? Damn straight I am ... marking time and living each minute the best way I know how.

    Life lately, however, has been way to freaking tough and demanding. Apologies to all those who have let me know they have noticed, and have worried about, my extended silences lately. No telling when it will ease up. Seems life just wants to be a Bitch lately. Sorry.

    Tuesday, November 24, 2009

    Thanksgiving 2009

    Final menu.
    Too much?
    Too little?
    Oh dear...

    APPETIZERS:
    Buffalo Wings w/Veggie Sticks & Ranch Dressing
    Stuffed Mushroom Caps
    Caprese Antipasto Salad
    Loaded Potato Skins
    Stuffed Dates

    BEVERAGES:
    Coffee
    Chai Tea
    Raspberry Refreshers
    Ice Water, Milk, Apple Cider

    SALADS:
    Tossed Salad w/Herbed Croutons & bottled dressings
    Sweet Potato Salad
    Cornbread Salad

    BREADS:
    2 Fresh-Baked Loaves of Bread
    Crescent Rolls
    Buttermilk Biscuits
    Butter Pats

    MAIN ENTRES & ACCOMPANIMENTS:
    3 Turkey Roasts w/Herbs & Pan Dripping Gravy
    2 Small Ham Roasts w/Raisin Sauce
    1 Herbed & Crusted Pork Loin Roast

    Apple Almond Stuffing
    Pineapple Casserole
    Home made applesauce
    Home made cranberry sauce
    Yam & Peach Bake
    Baked Sweet Potatoes w/Brown Sugar & Cinnamon
    Pat's Special Mashed Potatoes w/Gravy
    Swiss Potato Kugle
    Creamed Spinach
    Cheesy Cabbage Bake
    Green Beans w/Caramelized Onions & Apple Cider

    DESSERTS:
    Apple Pie
    Cherry Pie
    Pecan Pie
    Mincemeat Pie
    Vanilla Ice Cream

    Sorry - I just don't do Green Bean Casserole or Jello Salads
    Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!
    Gobble Gobble!

    Sunday, November 08, 2009

    The Times They Are A-Changing

    Lola has to leave (moving). I understand, but I am sad.

    Chris and Connie, very close friends, are also moving - far, far away.

    Bob will be moving out on his own soon.

    Another person close to me has also announced plans to move.

    All of these departures will be this month, next month at very latest.

    PJ is losing friends. I am losing friends. We do understand. We even support. But we can't help but feel deep sadness and loneliness. Just can't help it.

    Alone ... again ... naturally.

    Saturday, November 07, 2009

    Apartment Hunting

    So, the Ex has been busy apartment hunting. He needs a one room, or one bedroom, place. Only problem is, it needs to be no more than roughly $450/month, furnished, and the utilities need to be included in the rent.

    Sigh. Right. So then - fingers tightly crossed (and prayers flying fervently heaven-ward) that miracles do still happen -- because he can not, MUST not, end up back here with us.

    Saturday, October 31, 2009

    Halloween 2009

    For a change, even I joined in the fun this year! I dressed natural ... as a witch! Yes, the mask finally came off!



    Annnnnddddd.... they begged me to put my mask back on!



    PJ and I even dressed up to visit the Ex in the nursing home! Staff thought it was awesome! First, PJ and Dad ....



    And yes, even I dressed up and walked into the nursing home in costume! I even drove the Ex around town for 4 hours, so he could have a bit of any outing and run some errands! He is actually walking fairly well, with a cane. Now if only PJ's system would stop trying to reject his transplant, my life would be perfect!

    Thursday, October 29, 2009

    Early Winter Storms

    Why am I working from home today, in my warm pajamas?? A slideshow of pics around town of yesterday's and today's early winter storm, courtesy of The Examiner, a local news service:

    http://www.examiner.com/ExaminerSlideshow.html?entryid=699687&slide=1

    And another visual ... we're in the 10-18 inches sector ...



    And one more visual...more walking than driving being done (courtesy of AP photos)!



    Lastly, for YouTube addicts, news of our precipitation event here in the Wild West has even made it to YouTube!



    Yes, that's right ... the WEATHER is the leading topic of conversation in these here parts! Exciting, huh? LOL!

    Wednesday, October 28, 2009

    Morning Commute

    My morning commute this morning! Driver's view, from behind the steering wheel. Do you see a road? Or a difference between the road and the rest of the countryside? My normal view on this road is a proliferation of snow capped mountains cluttering up the horizon!

    Tuesday, October 27, 2009

    Roller Coasters

    It's been a roller coaster ride with regard to battling rejection. Last doctor visit: rejection reversed. This morning's doctor visit: full blown rejection has returned. Doctor had to give PJ a shot in his eye. Not fun. Not fun at all. And we are back to anti-rejection drops every hour on the hour (rather than every 2 hours), and weekly doctor visits (rather than every other week).

    And so the roller coaster ride continues...

    Monday, October 26, 2009

    Fun

    I'm in a lingering foul mood. Has to do with suddenly realizing that I've forgotten how to have fun, and that there's no one to have fun with anyway. I've been so focused on being the mature, responsible adult for my son and Ex (and just about everyone else I know or have ever known) ... that I've completely forgotten how to have fun.

    I know only how to be responsbile. And reliable. And strong. And boring.

    And that kinda pisses me off. And depresses me. "So go figure out how to get happy, already!" I can hear you say. Right! Easier said than done. Church surmon this past Sunday was on rest, and our paster asked "What is the main stumbling block to you getting one full day a week to rest?" I thought about that, and had to answer "Getting everyone else to go along with the plan."

    And that is the same stumbling block to me rediscovering how to have fun: how to politely tell everyone to take their demands and expectations of me ... and jump off the nearest 30-story roof with them!

    Wednesday, October 21, 2009

    Strength

    I've come to accept that I just might be strong. Might be true. But that scares me. I mean, I've been "strong" for so many, for so long. Family. Friends. Family. It is inevitable that, someday, my strength will be no more. What then? There will be no one around willing, or able, to be "strong" for me. I feel certain of this. I say this only because I've already experienced it.

    A Conundrum

    A life of secrets, lies and dark shadows will always imprison you, giving power to only your enemies. Just a little digging, and all you tried to hide is revealed to them forever, to use against you at will, holding you hostage forever.

    However.

    A life lived openly and honestly, warts and all, offers no fuel to those seeking to harm. How can it? If you make a point of being the very first to own and admit your follies, foibles, transgressions, fears, weaknesses, sins, darkness and silliness -- you effectively snuff the flame before it ever sparks. Poof! Nothing at all to work with! Takes the fun right out of it. They will move on.

    And therein lies the rub.

    If you are to live openly and honestly, you must indeed be strong. For though certainly you will have freedom from persecution, you will also be freed from persecutors. Many of those will likely be people near and dear to you. Even when clearly you are not near and dear to them.

    And that will hurt. A lot. And for a very long time.

    What price freedom? Indeed.

    Saturday, October 10, 2009

    Terminix To My Rescue!

    Let's see. What have I been up to lately? "Lately" being defined as past 3-4 weeks!

    Hmmmm. Well, let's see. There's been the furnace to get fixed. And PJ's corneal transplant rejection. And Ex's loan shark, gambling, and porn website follies. Not to mention amputation of all his toes on left foot, and me forbidding him to live with us ever again.

    Oh ... and last but not least ...

    The mice!

    As of 9am this morning, however, mice are no longer a concern! Terminix arrived right on time, traps have been layed, house has been sprayed, quarterly visits have been arranged. Just a matter of time. And patience.

    Quick! Anyone have any time and patience I can borrow? LOL!

    Say your prayers, little mousy! You are history!




    My only regret? I had to throw the colander away as well. I really liked that colander too ... Lola gave it to me! Crap. Damn mice!

    Monday, October 05, 2009

    A Slight Hiccup

    A bit of a startling eye doctor appointment today: small signs of rejection. The doctor doesn't seem too concerned, so I'm taking my cue from her. She suspects that since PJ was sick last week, his immune system "kicked into high gear" to cure the sickness, and in so doing "recognized" the "other" foreign matter (the cornea). For now the treatment is to revert to former aggressive treatments: visits that were 3-weeks apart, are now back to once every week. And the anti-rejection drops that were twice a day, are now once every hour (except when sleeping).

    PJ said he had the perfect answer: He's just going to sleep a lot!

    Sunday, September 27, 2009

    Newsflash

    This just in from Favorite Son:

    "OK. I just farted, my brain's working again."

    Saturday, September 26, 2009

    Go 'Way

    I don't care what profession you're in, there's just nothing professional about bad-mouthing your competition to your customer. Especially when you do it every chance you get. And it sure in heck isn't the way to endear me to you and gain more of my business!

    I'm just saying ...

    Friday, September 25, 2009

    What Should I Be When I Grow Up


    Your Career Personality: Original, Devoted, and Service Oriented

    Your Ideal Careers:

    Art director
    Book editor
    College professor
    Composer
    Film director
    Graphic designer
    Novelist
    Stage actor
    Psychiatrist
    Writer

    The Quick and Dirty Career Test

    Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

    Monday, September 21, 2009

    Blogthings Says My Ex Is Dependent




    Your Ex is Dependent



    Your ex is dependent on others for almost everything - and has trouble accepting responsibility.

    Your ex is not able to be independent and fears being alone.

    People with dependent personality disorder feel helpless when a relationship ends and need constant reassurance.

    Sound at all familiar?




    The really sad footnote is: Bob has lost his battle to save his toes. The wound from the last toe amputation has been officially termed non-healing and incurable. They will amputate half of the foot (all toes plus a few inches above the toes ... essentially the entire ball area of the foot) tomorrow at 2pm mountain time. The only other choices were to spend the rest of his life on IV antibiotics, or to lose his leg entirely. The surgeon says he will still be able to walk after this amputation, with the aid of a specially made shoe.

    Bob wanted me to make this decision for him. I refused. I told him my medical power of attorney over him did not kick in until and unless he was unable to make his own decisions. I told him he was nowhere near that stage yet. I suggested he talk extensively with the doctor and make the choice he was most comfortable with, after long and careful consideration.

    So you're probably asking yourself, "What's the connection between the Blogthings quiz results above, and this little footnote?"

    We are divorced, he is yet of sound mind (well - as sound as his mind can be) ... and when the surgeon walked into the room with this news today ... he literally put the doctor on hold, tells him to stay put, and calls me! His ex wife! To make the decision for him!

    Dependent? Ya Think? Oy Vay!

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